In Other Words

Looking for laughter

I seem to have lost my sense of humour up here in the last couple of days. Might that be because I moved office? Or maybe its just because I’ve been writing in the morning these last few days. Or maybe its because I’m getting a few hits and I’m trying to impress. I hope its not that last one, if it were that would be really annoying as I started this blog for me and I would like to continue with it being for me.

The idea is to write something for myself and if other people enjoy it so much the better. I do have to say that I enjoy writing about politics, religion etc. and I want to continue writing about them, but they aren’t the only thing this blog is about. This blog is about one thing and one thing only. You can probably guess what it is. Me. My thoughts, my ideas, my beliefs, my opinions and my interests.

Of course that doesn’t mean that I don’t want other people to come read my stuff. Clearly I do. Every third post seems to be about how I can draw more people to this blog. Even more importantly, I want other people to comment and disagree. After all, we never learn anything from people that agree with everything we say. Still, I don’t want everything up here to alter just because people are interested in what I have to say. In fact the very reason that they are coming here to read my stuff means that I should continue heading in the direction I’m heading, right?

I wonder how selfish I sound on this blog. Maybe selfish isn’t the world. Narcissistic would probably fit better. Am I narcissistic? Do I think the world revolves around me? Well my world certainly does. But then everybody’s world revolves around themselves (or should, I imagine that if your world revolves around somebody else but yourself that you really need to get some help. Idolization is fine, obsession isn’t).

You know how hard it is not to edit as I type? Imagine if I offended somebody. Imagine if I caused somebody to go ‘what an arsehole’. That’s stupid though. What ever I do somebody is going to think I’m an arsehole anyway. People always judge others without looking properly. I should know, I do it myself. Prejudice lies at the very core of our being, how ever much we might pretend it doesn’t.

Hell, it’s a survival trait. Tiger? Run! Its been hardwired into us. Just look at society and point out one society that has no racism. I really wonder, will we ever get rid of racism? I only see one way and that’s if we could replace it with something else like specieism (after all, we would probably stop hating each other if we have another species to hate instead).

So where is the humour? I don’t know. Maybe it is switching jobs. Maybe the fact of the matter is that I wasn’t very funny to begin with. I wonder how long this philosophical bender will last. I wonder when it passes (as it invariably will) whether I will lament its passing as well.

Man we’re all hung up on what has been, aren’t we? Maybe that was the royal we.

posted by Symbol @ 4.8.04